You didn't think that I would
Never thought that I could
Say no to you, let me tell you why
I walk a step ahead of you
Cause I see myself in you
So if you really want to
Get close with me you ought to
Lose the drama, and change your attitude, see
Cause I don't like pretending
No, I just want the real thing
Baby, your story, ain't good enough for me
Cause I used to break a heart in two
And that's why I'm nobody's fool
Someday I'm gonna find someone who wants my soul heart and mind
Who's not afraid to show that he loves me
Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am
Don't need nobody taking care of me
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
todae as d first tym i went church to study. hahs. i was dere fer lyk 4hrs. budden onli study fer abt 2 hrs. other 2 hrs i was helpin kahwah to test d chairs tgt 3 other guys. it was quite tirin but fun. aft tat learn sci frm kahwah cos i dunno den he teach him. until 9pm went hm. hahs. dunno kahwah can teach ppl. fridae goin back fer prayin meetin. woohoo! first tym. im gonna grow more.
todae heard sumthing frm mrs pang & om tan -- dey r leavin mfss at d end of d yr. wad m i suppose to do w/o dem. its so horrible. other tchers r so damn strict. aniwae,,when dey were tellin us tis,i felt d presence of Christ so strong which make mi wonder shld i go back church. budden i din. i skipped trainin too. dere is no one to accompany mi. d sec 1s r at public speakin. well,its alrite. i can study. my heart goes out to those hu tink why m i doin all tis. God wan us to be in d right way,d holy way. He is so real & serious. i noe tat i will walk to eternal life wid Him. pls ppl,christianity is not a religion,its a relationship wid God. i hope tat sumdae ebrione i noe will be saved.
finalli throughout all d practices,,todae we finallied performed. hahs. pastor how was surprised & thankful. he was lost at words. i tink tat though lots of accident happened todae,,d bdae bash went on smoothly. i felt tat throughout tis dance,,i known more ppl & get closer to ppl whom i known before d dance. ppl lyk linda,eeloo,kahwah,cherie,josceline & those dancers. i tink tat im growin lyk i nv before. i felt so close to church tat whenever i hab to leave,,i wont bear to. its lyk my hm. i owaex felt lurve & peace dere. its totalli different frm d outside world. im owaex growin & changin in God words. sumdae i will get real close to God ppl & grow to a better person.
Saturday, August 27, 2005
tis wk had certainly been a busy wk. i had been goin back to church fer lots of tym fer dance practice which took up lots of tym. racin wid tym is a muz. lots of hrs of study rule not completed. was lyk sick throughout d whole wk. i even din went out wid xin. sorri laopo!
being in church fer more than 3 mths hab make mi grow. God is changin my life fer d better. im now under control & habin more & more discipline. though im still in stage 1 which is gettin as wet as possible,i noe i will grow under Him. as i spend more tym in church,i get to noe more ppl & get closer to dem. all of us will grow tgt. i felt lyk habin a relationship wid God had changed my life much much much more better & happier. i can owaex feel peace in mi as i noe He is owaex dere. no matter wad prob i face in life, He will owaex be dere lyk a fwen,a father,& more impt,,He is my God. i lurve Him.
its been a few daes since i update here. its been so tough to complete a 20hrs study rule each wk wid d busy schedule i owaex hab. now tat i hab chosen God over world. i felt prosecution & problems arisin. i felt His presence owaex so strong. tis wk was certainly d wk tat i gt closer & noe more churchmate. though so of dem i dunno their names,,but i still wave & sae hi to dem. sumtyms its d other rnd. still d same rite? hahs. i nid $. i wan new clothin & d shirt fer d performance. anione hab black giordano crew/rnd neck L/XL shirt? lend it to mi pls.
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
as d study rule had began,,im gettin less tym fer myself & fwenx. studyin 20hrs/wk is sumthing i nv did before. i din even study fer 20hrs/yr. but fer God,,im willin to do so. its almost half d wk & i can still feel His presence. unlike d past when i onli feel His presence on sundaes. fwenx arnd mi dunno d changes in mi. my heart goes out to dem. as i begin to pray fer dem,,i realli hope tat dey will be touched by Him & be saved. especialli xin. revival is oso nided at hm too. ytd,,zhuo'er col mi to pray fer mum. not onli revival is nid at hm,,its nid ebriwhr. when zhuo'er move in to my blk,,we will reach out to d neighbours too. tke care ppls. gonna study agn. bye~
being not in church last wk as dere is fop,,i certainly missed church. xin went wid mi todae. though she wasnt a veri gd sheep,,i will not give up. i wan her to b saved. all tat i hab owaex prayed. i wan my closest fwen to b saved. i dun wan ani of dem to hab eternal death in hell. though not in church fer a long tym,,i noe im gettin involve in activities & God had opened up my mum heart to allow mi to participate. d sermon todae was 1 of d best tat had touched mi other than d first one. it made mi reflect on d past,,how i was tempted to smoke. lucki i did not. it was so gross. hahs. as d study rule begin on mi,,i gt to wrk xtra hard. i wan to rise up & serve in church lyk wad charleston said. tml is sch agn. so sianx. endin here. tke careT.
Saturday, August 13, 2005
derrick is out of superstar. its not fair at all lorx. alot of ppl vote fer weilian out of sympathy. his bi ying is so zhong lorx. derrick can sing better. he cried on d results. lotx of fans cried. i cried too. haix. derrick hoh weijian & leon lin yizhi will owaex be my superstar! i wanna cut my hair. pls give mi some money!!
hahs. todae is national dae. gt hols fer todae & tml. yeah! todae whole mornin rot at hm. den aftnn go my sis rm kajiao den fall aslp on her bed. siao liao. aft tat went sushi tei wid my mum at orchard. 8 sumthing jiu come back le. bought nuthing except bread. cos breadtalk gt sales. hahs.
o8.o8 -- sch ended at 10am. actualli goin hm. on bus laopo col mi to go bishan wid her & her classmates. nuthing to do dere so fool arnd wid dem lorx. hahs. not familiar at all. but i not daokia. aft tat went central find my grandma cos nv bring keys. aftnn went out wid xin to city hall. saw lanpuo laoshi dere. but nv col him or wad,,dun dare to. hahs. reach hm at abt 9.3opm. bought a new shirt frm ebase. tats all.
as i open up my heart & stand before Him,,i felt peace & joy. d Festival of Priase was absolutely awesome. d presence of God was veri strong. as we worship & praise Him,,i decided to change myself to a better. i gonna quit all my bad habits/attitudes & aggressiveness and will complete all my hmwrk. im going to pray fer more & more ppl to be saved. i will try to invite more fwenx to church. i will do my part..
we waited fer abt 3hrs before we could gt in. it was so hot. d performance were great. d vocal fer Delirious & Hillsong were handsome & chio. gt 2 signatures. hahs. 1 was frm d vocal of Delirious. he ish so handsome. im havin sore throat rite now. i cant lose my voice. oh !!
mfss is out of nationals. haix. all our dreams crashed. 35:29 was d score fer todae. im so so so tired. coachin was farkin angry todae cos we din do wad he sae. he even told jyelin to change cca cos she too small size le. aft tat went nyjc. played & chatted dere. went hm aft tat. din went cc to c hu was dere. aniwae,,gers we did our best le. though dere might not b animore chances fer us to play,we will still wrk hard rite? tke care lotx.
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
we din win todae. argh! d pts was 36:46.at least coach wasnt angry.we played better bah. we not gonna give up here.we will win nygs. fridae will be our big dae. liyan went back on court todae. cheers fer her. aniwae,,gd luck fer presbyterian & mfss fer next game. mfss will WIN nygs on fridae. jiayou gers!
din went sch todae. overslept,,actualli it wasnt lyk tis. my alarm rang at 5.45 but din wake my mum. abt 6.30 woke up agn. realised was late but din wan to rush so went back to slp till my mum woke mi up at 7. slp agn & woke up at 9+. aft tat jiu go polyclinic wid xin & daffy. go mediacorp,,daffy wan c weijian but too late le. he went in 1min before we arrived. went back to amk to mit huiling. she buy shoes le jiu zuo le. ebrione is not feelin well. all our players r sick especialli huijun. we all nid her to come. went 421 to mit farhan. sianx. went back serangoon. mit xin agn somewhr near her hse. some many ppl smokin dere. zj was dere too. he tell mi to bully his sis. siao. went nyjc to play bball jiu went hm. aniwae,,dere was praise fer farhan. dickson sae he kick soccer de oso can play bball better than ani new ppl. tml game we will win. miracle will happen.
Lord, todae here im pray to You tat tml we will win d nationals vs new town. pls heal huijun. we realli nid her. pls let all our players hab health,stamina,determination,courage,speed to play tml. let us play wid brains. let coach not b angry wid us. tml game is an impt game fer us. we nid to win to get into top 8. Lord, pls let us win. i pray all tis in d name of Jesus. Amen.
mfss WON d tournament against manjursi todae. had 2 time over -- draws fer twice. first tym i c. endin score was 50:40. coach was damn angry,,he walk away rite aft d game. he said tat even if we win,,he wont b happi. huijun cried lyk hell aft tat. she was injured & her specs were broken. chunfang did her best. she scored 36pts & fell lots of tym as her leg did not hab much energy. but i noe chunfang hab determination to play till d end. lurve her lotx! wanted to skip p.e todae but mrs sidhu din allow. i wore d wrong pants. lucki doreen lend mi hers though we ain close. lurve her too! aniwae,,we din hab enuff tym to eat todae. hope wed & fri will hab more. aft game went amk central wid huiling,,she wan buy shoes. i saw d bottle i wan in sportslink,,same price. tml goin to buy. gonna buy bobdog & pink mittens. mit xin,farhan,kelvin(shld b d name) aft tat. so sianx. aniwae,,went nyjc to play bball wid kelvin awhile. if not we will all b bored to death. hahs.