You didn't think that I would
Never thought that I could
Say no to you, let me tell you why
I walk a step ahead of you
Cause I see myself in you
So if you really want to
Get close with me you ought to
Lose the drama, and change your attitude, see
Cause I don't like pretending
No, I just want the real thing
Baby, your story, ain't good enough for me
Cause I used to break a heart in two
And that's why I'm nobody's fool
Someday I'm gonna find someone who wants my soul heart and mind
Who's not afraid to show that he loves me
Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am
Don't need nobody taking care of me
Thursday, September 29, 2005
1/2 dae nia todae. gonna mug. studies is so impt. aniwae,,i skipped hist mass lecture todae. mrs chia din tell us d tym & location. forget it. went eat wid tracey. saw wendy juz now. hahs.
ytd gt back sci paper. i gt a pathetic 1/2mark fer honesty. supposed to be 1. but tcher mark wrong on d other qn. i gt 32.5 initially so she add a 1/2 mark fer mi. hahs. saw qing on bus ytd. im owaex so blur. dey owaex c mi first. hahs. God is great!
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
im addicted to savin $$. dunno when it started,it realised tat i kip savin $$ though i wasnt in nid of dem. aniwae,,i gave my $$ to church. God's wrk nid finance. actualli,,im quite broke. im left wid 25bucks tis wk includin my transport fees. oh man.
we r blessed by our last yr seniors. dey did so well fer their Os tat d sch decided to give us 1/2 dae off which is uncommon fer mfss. other sch give off whenever dey win awards & whole dae when dey did well fer Os. mfss is stingy. its still a off aniwae. gonna chiong fer tat mornin. hahs.
Sunday, September 25, 2005
todae service was super great. lots of things i can relate to my life. woo! went church wid zhuo'er rite under d block. so cool! dere is still mani more tyms. i will pop-by her hse aft exams fer fun. hahs. i gt d registration form fer d BIG camp. dere is no one goin to d 1st camp in my cell except mi & zhuo'er. well,,its ok. dere is still lots of ppl. lalalas~
Saturday, September 24, 2005
BS is sososo great. d presence of God is sososo strong. simply lurve it! woohoo! todae we realli saw miracle as pastor how promised last wk. 7chpt in a session. wads more,,zhuo'er is officialli my neighbour. she is at blk 213 now. so wonderful. we will reach out to d neighbours tgt. sumdae i will pop-by her hse. its d start of our amazin journey,our amazin race. i lurve my amazin God!!
we were chattin on fone juz now. i din noe tat mi,xin,min can be so powerful. we were tokin abt wad gift daffy shld give us fer d you jiang wen da bi sai. mi & min kip sae dalun. aft tat we kip jia yan jia chu. daffy cry machiam gt ppl die. we kip laughin till siao. still put private juz to laugh. so funni sia. aft tat tio fever as wad she sae. hahs. nxt tym wan tke us & we will suan her. she sure can get mc. cos lyk tat jiu fever. wahahs. lmao.
Friday, September 23, 2005
i hab been tinkin abt d conversation mi,zhuo'er & samatha made last sat on mrt. we were tokin abt how fated we were to be in church. i was tinkin abt how amazin it is fer mi to be in church. i met zhuo'er on bus when i was goin trainin durin march hols. i exchange no wid her though we nv tok before in pri sch. d first tym she invited mi to red rain,i din go though i wanted as dere were probs at hm. 2nd tym,i went & was saved. now,,i treat her as 1 of my best fwen & leader. i share probs wid her. its so amazin. God is so amazin!
Thursday, September 22, 2005
I asked God for strength that I might achieve.
I was made weak that I might learn humbly to obey.
I asked for health that I might do greater things.
I was given infirmity that I might do better things.
I asked for riches that I might be happy.
I was given poverty that I might be wise.
I asked for power that I might have the praise of men.
I was given weakness that I might feel the need of God.
I asked for all things that I might enjoy life.
I was given life that I might enjoy all things.
I got nothing that I asked for,
but everything I hoped for.
Almost despite myself,
my unspoken prayers were answered.
I am, among all men, most richly blessed." -- fifi's blog
The world does not nid another leader, nor does it nid another argument winner or a gospel freak but it would definately nid another person who wud carry God's lurve & presence wid dem, going to d lost tat r trapped in a world of darkness, hopelessness & lovelessness -- Dominic (frm fifi's blog too!)
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
todae was a busy & suay dae. well,,aft sch i went to eat wid joanne oppo sch. prem saw mi & scolded mi. i hab to mit him at 7am tml. he said tat i dun look lyk an express student. so my groomin wud be ok if im frm normal. tchers look down on ppl. aft tat i went fer piano which i try so hard not to slp. came hm, ate dinner,online,do hmwrk. now im here agn. dere i chinese test tml which i hab yet to study. im so so so tired & yet still hab lots of things to do. jialat. tml is thurs. finalli. stop here soon. dun miz mi <3.
Sunday, September 18, 2005
my whole life is lyk so messy. im so weary emotional. d family i tried to hold close juz tear apart. all started by my sis. i cant tke it animore. todae sermon was sososo gd. simply lurve it. oh ya. todae i realised tat d leaders can oso be not so serious at tyms. when we were at d lobby juz now, we met charleston,jianming,garett,roy. guess wad? jianming was so lame. he told us tat he=jian-ston,roy=roy-ston,garett=gar-ston. dey use charleston name. so lame. hahs. aniwae, gonna stop here. nitex :)
i juz feel so weary in & out. i believe tat tis is something God wan mi to experience & grow. tats here im,,growin to stand strong. i dunno wad to do,i cant help. i realli nid d Holy Spirit go guide mi through. i cant tke it animore. tke care ppl. dun go hm late. its not gd. i hab a sis hu goes to church & not followin d godly way.
Saturday, September 17, 2005
im absolutely tired now. feelin so slpy. still hab arnd 4hrs of study rule yet to complete. muz complete tonite sia. i hab been slackin so much. i shld hab listen to cawa on tues. dun tok but study. im too lazy. i haben been slpin much tis daes. gonna mug tonite agn. well,,i will try my v best to study to 2am. i juz nid to study. exams rnd d corner. sososo much things haben study. i hab slack fer 8mths,its tym to pay back. all d fruits better study. daffy&xin muz go poa class. i wan go triple sci. tats my change in decision. received much much frm bible study todae. im growin. but i nid discipline more. well,,i shld realli end here. mayb online agn later bah. wait fer mi. tata~
Friday, September 16, 2005
juz now went beach rd & yishun wid xin. actualli wan buy sumthing at beach rd budden in d end nv buy. den went yishun. wan eat pizza budden nv eat pizza in d end cos d pizza too BIG. c liao oso scare. i buy spagahetti,xin buy carborona. in d end we exchange. stupid us. aft tat walk to sumwhr near np to tke bus. xin almost forget whr to walk. she lamer kip count bicycle. den we kip joke joke joke. aniwae,,todae we suppose to go swimmin. in d end nv go. we too lazy liao. tats why so FAT! i hate my FATS & my spoiled COMPLEXION!
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
todae mr tan came into my class & tell us a veri bad news. he is goin to transfer to evergreen sec in oct. i almost cried. he cant get use to life in c1. so do i. he broke his promise. he sae end of d yr. now? oct onli. haix. its so frustratin. ebrione is turnin my life upside down.
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
im sososo not used to d new campus. d food is sososo expensive. d distance frm amk central is sososo far. d rules r sososo strict. d sittin arrangement is sososo sux. i hate d merge sososo much. bball trainin is sososo sianx. cos ppl r sososo childish. i lurve my juniors. hahs.
Monday, September 12, 2005
12.o9.o5 marks d dae mfss merge as 1. as we leave d buildin todae, i suddenly realise tat all my habits hab to b changed. now i hab to walk fer 2 more bus stops before i can reach amk central. can nbr walk on d corridor, nbr climb d flight of stairs, eat at d study corner, eat d veri hm cook food, sit at d hall & parade sq, do mornin run at d technical blk dere & use d classrm. oh, how much will i miss d sch, ebri part of it. d place will owaex hold a memory fer mi. i look at d slideshow, i felt an ache in my heart. i owaex tot tat its alrite to move. i was wrong. d new facilities cant compare to my memories. c2, a part of mfss tat i wud owaex miss. being dere fer 21mths, i cant bear to move & todae d sch made us do a horrible thing -- leave frm dere & walk to c1. rules r gonna be more strict. how m i gonna survive my sec sch yrs? haix. formal lessons & cca gonna start tml. sianx sianx sianx. i hate bball trainin! i juz lurve to play it.
Sunday, September 11, 2005
d sermon pastor david preach durin d few daes was absolutely great. i receive so much. pastor how is great too! im growin in Him. tml sch gonna reopen & we gonna merge as 1. sianx. dunno wad to do. i noe tat no matter wad,d Holy spirit will be dere to help mi. its onli fer a few wks & it will be hols agn. i wan watch movie. jia hua yuan xian.
Friday, September 09, 2005
winnie d pooh pink tee -- i own one! hahs.
Thursday, September 08, 2005
im so excited. im EMPLOYED IN CAFE. woohoo! sis evelyn told mi todae when i was abt to leave church. she came out of admin office headin towards auditorium,she saw mi & said: "hwee yee, i gt gd news fer u." -- i was lyk wad gd news? im so so so excited. sis evelyn will arrange mi fer trainin before i can serve God. i lurve it. wahahs.
a web fer ppl to check out. its abt d bad ppl on mirc. check it out http://www.yourguysxxxposed.blogspot.com/
tues was so cool! mi,sis,sihui,qing & ru went studyin in church. well,we played more than we study. upper rm was so fantastic. d presence of God dere was so so so strong tat i din feel cold at all. before tat i was so cold. aft tat i went play bball. so long nv play liao. i felt lyk im fadin away frm bradell especialli ppl lyk chiahao. saw him tat dae but din even sae hi. i earn 7bucks on wed. i tutored my piano tcher daughter. i earned some food too. so it was not 7bucks at all. todae mornin im supposed to go swimmin wid xin,min,eunice. it rained last nite & we were all so lazy to wake up. xin col mi to sae dun go cos scare water v cold. actualli,we shld go. d sun is so strong. hahs. lazy ppl will grow FAT -- tats US!
Monday, September 05, 2005
went out wid xin todae. bought lotx of things. broke liao. eat into my savings sia. tml still gt trainin. super sianx de lorx. if i dun lyk bball jiu hao. no nid go trainin sweat lyk hell. todae saw d top i bought at ebase few wks ago goin fer 1/2 price. wth. 5o% = $16.5o. its so much. i can give it fer my titin. well,,im not gonna buy anitop frm ebase unless its sale or is those tubes/spags. so damn fed up.
Sunday, September 04, 2005
being wid God's children in church realli make mi grow more & feel d love. i was in church fer almost d whole dae on sat. i felt closer to more ppl & knowin more ppl. hoGc is juz lyk my 2nd hm. i simply lurve to live in God's lurve & grace. im growin up strong & healthy. im now tryin veri hard not to commit any sins. when i die,,i wan to stand infront of Him wid joy not sorrow. i wan to be accountable fer all my deeds. all d sins i once did,,i will account fer dem. im changin myself to be a role model fer my sis & showin ppl tat He realli changes mi. many ppl may tink im silly,,but how many ppl ever tink tat i learnt more & walkin on d right path instead of d wrong path i used to walk. if ah lians/bengs can change,why cant i? im juz a typical student. i will seriously pray fer all the lost souls. nitex ppl. <3
hoGc is a place whr i will realli grow. tho i cant be perfect,but i will live d best out of myself.
Friday, September 02, 2005
prayer meetin was so great! todae i saw roy in church. d one hu owaex sit outside office last yr. glad tat he went yckss. tink if he in mfss, no one will reach out to him. hope he gt saved & attends church regularly. so happy! todae i realli grow spiritually. wad i receive cant be express by words. i realli hope to get more ppl saved. hoGc rox on!