Saturday, December 31, 2005
WORST birthday ever!!
this is the most worst bdae in my whole entire life.
though i got presents but i was stabbed.
the first time for the past 14yrs that i dun feel excited about my birthday.
no birthday cake.
and i cried so much. its not becos i was happy pls.
too much things.
so dun feel like being at home..
Thursday, December 29, 2005
hohoho. xmas is over. MY birthday is here.
i got my camera alrdy *looks at fishball-
yes, its that casio one and its red in color!
i can finally tke foto like i used to.
my nightmare continues..
i was cryin like so long ytd. up to the wee hrs of the night.
this horrible house. it seem like everything is my fault when actually it's not.
i felt God so real last night. im like on His lap with Him comfortin me when im cryin like i can nv stop.
The words Dad told me is like no one will said to me not even my mum. my wound stopped bleedin. He loved me like no one else will ever do.
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
I GOT MY HANDPHONE SCRATCHED. BIG FAT SCRATCHES!
the hp cant be sell away when i dun wan it anymore.
i was sitting on my bed this morning thinkin how much shld i spent to buy my stuff, suddenly something quite bitter & is rather hurtful came pass me. and it's the reason why i have to spent my own money to buy the stuffs i waited for so long and expects to buy somewhere near my birthday with money given.
her birthday: ($1oo-$6o)+$2oo+swensen cake
my birthday: $2o+a simple meal costin arnd $2o
see the difference. mum offered my sis like $340 for her bdae. mine? not even 1/4 of hers. obviously i knew the reason.
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
hohos. my bdae is coming. oh yeah!
some ppl still havent give me my present.
today saw a pink stud belt at chinatown, exactly like what i want
but i never wear jeans. so cannot try & so didnt buy. zhen shi sian..
think by this wk will go buy. yeah! finally got new belt!
this wk gonna be the best, save the best for the last.
belt, shirt, digital cam & heartawards(first time mum allow me overnight out other than chalet & camp) zhen shi shuang!
no usherin for heartawards but there is cafe! yeah!
working with new ppl. nothing better than at hoGc.
went yishun play bball again. mayb this time will be the last time can eat with them. or even play with them lor. sch reopenin soon. if can go, at most only until 9pm. zhen shi sian.
aiya, more & more ppl sayin me & honghwee look alike. diao..
Monday, December 26, 2005
during the christmas services, the endin song was too real. it is ringing in my mind.
SO YOU WOULD COME
Before the world begin
You were on His mind
And every tear you cried
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only son
Everything was done
So you would come
Nothing you can do
To make Him love you more
And nothing you've done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He give His only son
Everything was done
So you would come
Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come
Sunday, December 25, 2005
BLESSED CHRISTMAS.
what a wonderful xmas.
okay, im ashamed to say that i didnt give anyone anything.
and many people gave me gifts.
ying's gift was the best. it's the thing that im always lazy to buy.
hahs. bdae coming. where is my present?
and yar, i found my long-lost brother.
LUO HONGHWEE!
that time go play bball they say we look alike.
tis time someone thought im his sister.
shiwei got tis fwen named darryl,
today after dinner, we went back to church.
honghwee was doin BM, darryl looked at him in the art gallery and ask me:
"he is ur brother right?"
i immediately exclaimed:"NO!"
he thought that we were siblings.
honghwee and hweeyee. "GOT THE HWEE"
diao. if i really got a hao gege like honghwee jiu hao.
too bad i dun have. only silblings-in-Christ.
Saturday, December 24, 2005
i cant imagine this bdae w/o church.
my mum doesnt wants to give me any present.
not even a cake. its so not fair.
i will still get my mangoshirt, bodyshop perfume, winniethepooh.
i saved for this day. im going to shop like never before.
anw, i will still get my digital camera frm dad.
AND, the best thing is i got my Father in heaven.
He gonna give me my present, and i noe it's there.
blown-away~ service was great! and yes, i was touched. the ending song super nice. service was packed! we layed-out not enough chairs. and there were not enough ushers. we all wore christmas hat! and i did stock-check today. so tiring. im super lousy at counting. dunno lost count how many times.
im going for service again tml. yeah!
Friday, December 23, 2005
no present is more worth than seeing souls saved and live changed on christmas and my birthday.
Thursday, December 22, 2005
food cross was super fun! (although i was like leading stones other than shiwei)
many unhappy things happened though. or rather i wasnt happy.
anw, it's over. and im quite happy.
i love the movie the most. so nice and cant be describe.
christmas is here soon! so is my birthday.
AND!! today when i reached home, i saw a letter which is for me.
guess what? it's a birthday card from pastors.
i was shock! i thought only the leaders & those facing PO will have it.
i got it too! and it's mailed to my house.
i got the same card as qing but i still like it.
the cover is so touching lah.
God turns to us, one by one, and says:
"You are my child, I love you dearly."
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
went suntec today. actually wan buy the winniethepooh. but thought of it, need to carry it all the way. so shld be ask my dad buy. so i no need spent my money. afterthat went home. wait for 70 for 30mins and the bus nv come. so took 133 in the end. stupid sia. waste my time & money.
sometimes i just felt so disappointed in ppl. giving empty promises and stupid excuses. no need to investigate so much alrdy know is excuse. i just felt so pressed down.
Monday, December 19, 2005
ushers' outing so fun!! hahs.
there were crazy games and we walk all around.
the most irritating game-ic is MELVIN
we look for him all arnd and he is at a super far rock.
we went to the rock nearest to our pit and saw this uncle with a bike sun-tanning.
first time, we thought it's not melvin. so we went to another rock.
after that, we cant find him and thought that was him who went to change his shirt. so we went back.
just when kahwah was going to hug him, he realise that is not melvin cos that guy is botak.
and all rest of us can see his tummy when we are not on the rock. hahs. melvin where got so fat? zzz.
melvin went so far with his bicycle. and my team walked & run the distance of like 7rocks (from 1rock to the nxt is arnd 50m and we were on soft sand)
im so not alert to miss 76 twice.
the first time goes like this..
me,huiting & kristi was talking. huiting & kristi was sitting & i was facing them.
halfway, throughout the talk,
huiting: who wants to take 76?
when i turned back 76 alrdy zoomed past. hahs.
the 2nd time,
i was sitting there alone as all of them took another bus to the bus interchange.
i was staring at my phone. and something so bright went past.
i raise my head and tadaa! it's an empty double-deck 76 zooming past.
ahhh!! i missed my bus twice. i scream for the first one and dropped for the 2nd one.
how not alert can i be?
if not i will reach home by 22 30 instead of 23 00. see the difference?
Sunday, December 18, 2005
too serious i think.
Saturday, December 17, 2005
hello everyone!!
im back home since yesterday.
i slept super early last night, like 9pm??
the camp was great especially the services.
i was again put into a team which i dunno anyone or not close.
this time was more worst than last time and the whole camp atmosphere was so dead. the first night jianming & jackson wanted to stay over at charleston's hse when they planned to stay at the camp.
and i definately miss the bunk ppl i slept with during the first camp.
this bunk ppl didnt wan to slp and woke up so early.
i was waken up by all their alarms & talks & they were making lots of noise when it was time to slp.
and worst, there was this person(you noe who) delibrately went against me during the last night.
but i dun care, i still can slp.
last thing, food cross is coming up again!
and after food cross, zone C is watching chronicles of narnia together.
the worst thing is?
i dunno if i can watch the movie with them?
my mum wants to bring me for facial.
and she said it long ago.
i cant possibly tell her that the church is having this thing and i cant go with her.
she will explode.
i will think of reasons to make her change it to friday.
and i'll not go sarawak with her next wkend.
im going church! i got hmwrk as excuse. hahs.
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
went for CG today. the games are so fun. hahs.
i waited for the FBT red pants for the whole day and in the end it didnt have.
i want the FBT red pants
i'll get it on anyday that i have the chance to PS, if not will be saturday.
today in CG, we sang 'Here I am to Worship'
Light of the World
You stepped down into darkness
Opened my eyes
Let me see
Beauty that made
This heart adore You
Hope of a life
Spent with You
Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You're my God
You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me
King of all days
Oh, so highly exalted
Glorious in Heaven above
Humbly You came
To the earth You created
All for love's sake became poor
I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
it just describe God so much. my lovely Daddy.
Monday, December 12, 2005
many a times i wonder, if i nv tke bball. i would just be someone you see outside. girlish & weak.
yes, but that's not hweeyee.
last time, bball is just a game that will tempt me to exercise regularly.
now i realise, some of the tweenyweeny things that i learned in bball are used in my life to protect myself.
if someone suddenly move back when he is walking, my first instinct is to shield with my arms so that i wont be taken advantage of.
most importantly, bball is like a gift to reach out to ppl, a first step to go!
im going to BIG camp again. isnt it so cool?
my GOD is BIG
Sunday, December 11, 2005
first usher duty today!! i was late. i rushed almost everything from takin shirt to reachin church. and i was nervous too! hahs.
today there is my fav song. ALL DAY! look at the lyrics.
I don't care what they say about me
It's alright, alright
I dont' care what they think about me
It's alright
They get it one day
I love You, I'll follow You
You are my, my life
I will read my bible and pray
i will follow you all day
I don't care what it costs anymore
Cause You gave it all and I'm following You
I don't care what it takes anymore
No matter what I'm going your way
I love You, I'll follow You
You are my, my life
I will read my bible and pray
I will follow You all day
All day, all day now, all day
Anyone around can see
Just how good You've been to me
For all my friends who don't know You
I pray that You would save them too
Friday, December 09, 2005
todae my hse no electricity agn. so went out to slack with xin & min.
in the end they come my hse play & eat. play until so siao.
and low limin took alot of photos with my fone.
they even help mi pack my cupboard. hahs.
thats the craziness of us.
i wan that winniethepooh frm carrefour which is on sale for $29.9o. and that tigger too! i oso wan FBT shorts, RED one!!
Thursday, December 08, 2005
today went suntec city with xin.
went arcade waste money.
i want that winniethepooh frm carrefour.
its $29.9o. so expensive.
but it's cute & huggable.
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
im back hm! i broke my record of not slpin more than 24hrs.
the chalet was kinda a success. i enjoyed it.
there was tis so call competition to set up the fire for bbq between the girls & the boys. and yes, the fire that the girls set up was more successful. i did almost everything.
and of cos we went to the beach. not once but twice. walkin on the beach barefooted was so shiok.
cyclin in the night with many ppl is damn fun.
and at night when we were out, funny stuffs happened too.
me & peiling was playin stress in the rm, so jiaxin,vivien,cindy went out for a walk.
they didnt bring any hp with dem. we tried callin dem but no one answer the fone and we didnt noe they didnt bring their hps.
so me & peiling walk to one end of the section and didnt find them.
so we walked back to the chalet but we OVERSHOT.
we talked too much and we walk halfway, realise: how come so wierd? so we walk back lor.
we were on our way to the public toliet, there is tis man laying on the table with his blanket on his head lookin like dead body..
peiling: are you sure that is a human?
me: hug her
peiling: ahhh!!
ppl frm chalet: keep quiet lah.
me: excuse me, u tink u very quiet izzit?
ppl frm chalet: murmurs. (too soft to be heard)
tis may look stupid, but if you are there, it will look funny. cos my brain cant wrk as per normal at 5am, so i dunno why i hugged peiling too.
on our way back to the place we came from, i thought peiling forget tke my fone..
me: xian zai ji dian?
peiling: looks at her fone. hweeyee, ni de dian hua.
me: turn back and run.
when i ran for a few steps,
peiling: hweeyee, ni de dian hua zai zhe li
me: walk back
peiling: gan cai ni yao kai shi pao shi, wo mo dao yi ge bearbear. wo yao gen ni jiang but ni tai kuai liao.
hahs, tis is not very funny too but peiling tinks it's funny.
when we were on the bus heading back, everyone was aslp except me becos im the first to alight. i was msg-ing with kahwah on the bus and i tink i see & intepreted 1 msg which led to a small argue. funny sia.
i mistook my hse heys for my grandma's so i went hm to knock the door and even call back. no one opened the door. i walked to grandma hse and when i got out of the lift, i took out the keys to realise that it's my hse keys.
diao!!!
i got to walk hm again. lucky the walk was 5mins only. if not wo jiu have to walk until i drop.
Monday, December 05, 2005
about 5wks of the hols had passed and i haven complete my hmwrk yet. but tis hols has certainly been the most fulfilling one.
BIG camp
Vacation Bible School
Sy Rogers
there is still:
BIG camp 2
Christmas
heart awards
AND
my BIRTHDAY
see-ing more souls being saved. and promised to come to church. woosh! how wonderful.
yes, the reason im here to blog is becos i have nothing BETTER to do. hahs.
Thursday, December 01, 2005
im gonna move hm soon. the walls are so nice & everything, new furniture & stuffs.
BUT, i just dun feel like moving back. everyone is like going against me. pls lah, im human too lor. there is no freedom and yes, everyone attack me in the hse. no point have a hse look so nice physically but behind the doors, its all broken. all the big fat lies are like invisible explosive mines lying on the ground waiting for me to step on them. somehow i just didnt get to step on them. and i dunno how many more are there.